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Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Please accept my plea so I can leave you free.

I'm bothering you to hand my gift
Symbolize sweet love that lift
Lift the short sadness you feel
To make you happy smile and heal

Softly hurted by their rejectment
Softly drowned in your own adjustment
For trying to be the hero she see
For trying to be the hero you want to be

You told me things that few only knew
You told me stories few only brew
You share you kindness all I have see
You share even your mask, unhide just to be

I told you things no one knows
I listen to your stories close
I share some secret I bare to open up
Suddenly you just give it out up

Even though now I hide
The faults in roads i ride
Being burden to others and me
Being nothing is what i chose to be

So please accept this part of me
That I want to hand to you I plea
For it will lighten up my soul
To start my life,leave and carry my goal

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

The Feeling When.... A friendship is lost....

Just found out
There is a boy that I want to befriended with. I open things to him that I never shared with anyone else. For a short time of chatting we talk about things on life, happy and sad thoughts. Then he gave me his number, I see that it was wrong but though I continue to send messages everyday. One time accidentally, I slide the name and dial it. I refuse to listen to the operator voice but repeatedly it says " The phone number you dialed is invalid " With a half smile with my lips I'm breaking inside soon there tears fall from nowhere. Now this is me, the same stupid person again.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

February 17 2015 - "I have this sad feeling of not be able to hear you"

For so long I have been that happy
On things finally are falling to pieces
Embark the twine twigs that rattling
And something that lost I have find

Soaring up high in joyfulness
You reach my heart filled with warmth
In your eyes, voice and smile
I never felt so easy and safe abide

But yesterday the bird sings one grace
Have come and bid a near calling
His heart is pierce and torn to pieces
There he will grieve and rest cannot find

My heart embark a fiery sprite
Once have been lifted and carry behind
Lost in dark cannot entwined
With the song in my heart you have rhymed

My heart is like yours torn to pieces
In my eyes there's grieving cold cries
You and I would might not be with each other
And I will never be the same person again
We've met on strangers road
No one told on what to hold
So many faces, eyes I stalled
All in my mind is your smile have recalled

In dark night unnamed stars collide
Such unique they all mesmerize
Sparks and flame all not the same
Harmony bright light they all share

All share in strangers path
All are bond to some of what
Some of what I used to believe
Believing things are all ways have meant to be

We have our own journey
When we've met on strangers road
When our eyes have swiftly collide
In my memories I will keep all your smiles
I never let anyone bard to know
The truth in me inside endow
For I deprive the world to share
Secrets in my life I bare

One by one I chained this soul
Chained sewed one by whole
Where I was drowned by heavy tears
To rust in hate, pain and fear

Guilty accused from what have told
Called they knew the truth I hold
All this time they think I'm dold
But there's nothing than emptiness I fold

Mind is anxious of what they have know
If I die in morose then throw to fall
A cold hearted person what have I shown
Everyone have see I build tall wall

I have sheltered my heart away from world
For not to hurt again by sharp words
Words doesn't rhyme and seem misfits
Made me not to stay, leave and no one to keep  

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Wind blew in different directions
Claim not to stay in one direction
For its spirit is a free creation
And carries life in all sanction

The wind may stay and leave swiftly
Travels in space occasionally
Move in such speed that cannot see
Left no trails in path is seeks

In clear blue sky where clouds have live
And a tree besides full with green leafs
Mind playing though, imagining took deep sighs
What might it feel to live such up high

The wind blew hard this time
The leaves scattered, mesmerize and fall
One by one each leaf seems to dance
Like a symphony, what a harmonic fall

The tree fallen leafs gives way
For sun ray light can reach to me
As the falling leafs stop in bay
After all of this, what I see is peace

In such peace I cannot think
What right or wrong do I commit
Nor how many lies I act and repeat
Nothing less, nothing more I can speak

When I look up above
In there, the wide blue horizon covering thee
In there the clouds embrassing all together
Mixed feeling, but something have pass over me

I cannot live in such nothing less
I cannot find answers in middle of my questions
With no one to ask and tell me what to do:
     Then the wind blew, and whisper what I must do
     Then the wind blew, and all of sudden I can go through
Lets have a journey , you and me
Where our foot take us in the great horizon
I got your back and you have mine
Together both of us, we  have our home

I got you and you got me
With trust and loyalty, were safe in each hand
With respect we will live in harmony
To care and love will grew us strong

I promise in time where you cant walk
I'll be your foot and carry all of you
Just like when you cannot read your book
I'll sing those words in loving call voice

I am enough with your smile and laughs
I am satisfied with your embrace each morning we wake up
I am rich with your care and warmth conversation
I am thankful for having you, my friend, my partner
I have so many doubts
About myself that clouds
Restrain me to look and see
Where now, I want to break free

Thinking, thinking and lot of it
What step must took for me
What path should I take
So many dreams I must pick

In dark nights I watch along
As it pass away and leave me no song
At point of grief and loss of hope
There's no light where I left alone

It burden to loss precious stones
It grieve to loss love ones
So much it hurt what deep it would never be
So much to hold on things I can no longer see

So let myself burn in cold fire
To feel the hurt you hold undesire
Burn me in the warmth of the cold fire
For things I stride will turn in your desire

 

You save me, My Unknowingly You

I wonder what thus it might be
 Live with an angel beside me
With wings of hope, come from the sky
 Lift the burden tears in my eyes

With brilliant light peerless of him
 That cast away shadows and turn around rim
That give hope to some it seem
 Pave what always have dim

You shines like star in heavens night
 With chimes bells it rings en-light
In silent air it can all be heard
 Melody symphony it aired

You are unique not to compare
 For what I saw, I truly care
In you, your smile, you have shared
 You lightened a fainted heart bared

Indifferent our eyes collide
 Know your heart is down earth right
In your silent I know you respect
 And know to stand for others rights

I have been save in many ways
 By single  turn you have embrace
Just like the smile that you have gave
 All sadness and sorrow will leave

I want to share life in your days
 Smile back look at your face
Hold on my heart to say "Thank You"
 That you have save me, My Unknowingly You
Something is happening inside of me
 I know I'm dying as I breath
Cannot swallow the words I spoke
 Choke me hard and cannot evoke

Rain is falling from the sky
 Heavens crying to my lies
Never knowing how to pay
 Forgiveness is what I have to say

Soon I see through your eyes
 Those pain that you have cry
From the fault that I have done
 Your the one I let be gone

Please forgive me in this time
 Now I leave you in your own
Never knowing where  to go
 At least for now try learn stand alone
Time goes by and someone leave
 Regreted tings that I cannot keep
To turn around for someone fills
To mend the gap, I am lift

What I have done is out of love
 For my kin to be proud
Along the way , wrong it may be
 For the thing done had, I have live

What wrong I done to my family
 For all have done is out of he
For there's something you find, you see
 That doesn't fit in all of he

I wake up early in the morning
 Writing poems rhyming in my dream
Tried to sing the phrase that playing
 In my mind what thus it seem

Quickly straight forward run down stairs
 To note the thought in head is loud
Then swiftly realize it fading slowly
 Leaving the truth out of me

God is love that guide us from above
 A Father who give the best out of he
A Mother here to call in second chance
 And me trying to know what I can be

Dreams may not be true but seems enough
 Enough to live truth to be true
True it may find faking the reality
 Reality that keeps my vain in sanity

Sometimes I feel I'm to small
 That cannot bear things at all
When I walk I fear those tall
And just for me wanting to fall

Time comes I measure my pride
 How tall, how wide all one me
But though all I do see and empty vase
 Even poured heavily cannot be faired

I am trying to sing all this to me
 This pain inside and hurts I hide
Let my chained heart in cage be free
 To let it go, and happiness will find me

I lay down heavy on my bed
 Turn around and place my head
Looking in the gap between the phase
 Searching eyes on thin space

Looking down and all are the same
 Hearing calls no meaning to me
Make me anxious what it might
 Afraid to stand and turn the light

Nothing wrong in all of he
 For what flaws you have see
The figurine is at his best
 Beyond the smile, a heart with less

Try to harness, give all have rest
 But others make a head at first
Even I show all my card
 People know to play on me, hard

Why I still care for all of this
 For its my thirst to choose to please
Neither straight, loop or loose
 I always ride the boat to choose

Let them speak and take it from me
 Where I am the one to call it free
For its me the first to take it true
  Whom it grew from my own due

Time will take for me to learn
 How to stand up and walk alone
Never bothering someone shoulder
 For I will not reside is someone concern