You're Not Alone

You're not alone
You have your family, friends and mates.
A lot of things happen around and specially in you
You can influenced in many ways
Your act and words may seem absurd
You are unique in your own ways
Although there are times in such ways you are indifferent person
Not to like and like
You look in the empty space like your tearing apart and drowning deeply
You laugh aloud like your screaming of pain
You run lively, wanting to run from the truth
You smile so gentle like saying I need You
You're not alone my dear child
You have everyone
Everyone that can both hurt and love you
It's in you to decide where you want to belong
It's in you to decide what to act and say
It's in you to decide how to stop the screaming in your head
It's in you to decide how to love and be care
It's in you to decide what, where and who you to be.

Please don't hurt your yourself
Dont drown in your tears
Dont devour with the world madness
Know how to stand on what is right and truth
Them, me - are here. Let us enter your heart just like how much we care and love you
Let us understand you despite of our blindness
You're not alone.
I love you so much my dear child.

08 - 12 - 2016

Day is off, Night is on
Exhausted body must rest its vigor
With weary heart and sorrow soul
Tuck in bed to cry can't roar
Leave my mind in loud silence
Drown my pain in flaws and sadness
Left in back of those in front
Once you love, chances are vague for them to recall

Please accept my plea so I can leave you free.

I'm bothering you to hand my gift
Symbolize sweet love that lift
Lift the short sadness you feel
To make you happy smile and heal

Softly hurted by their rejectment
Softly drowned in your own adjustment
For trying to be the hero she see
For trying to be the hero you want to be

You told me things that few only knew
You told me stories few only brew
You share you kindness all I have see
You share even your mask, unhide just to be

I told you things no one knows
I listen to your stories close
I share some secret I bare to open up
Suddenly you just give it out up

Even though now I hide
The faults in roads i ride
Being burden to others and me
Being nothing is what i chose to be

So please accept this part of me
That I want to hand to you I plea
For it will lighten up my soul
To start my life,leave and carry my goal

The Feeling When.... A friendship is lost....

Just found out
There is a boy that I want to befriended with. I open things to him that I never shared with anyone else. For a short time of chatting we talk about things on life, happy and sad thoughts. Then he gave me his number, I see that it was wrong but though I continue to send messages everyday. One time accidentally, I slide the name and dial it. I refuse to listen to the operator voice but repeatedly it says " The phone number you dialed is invalid " With a half smile with my lips I'm breaking inside soon there tears fall from nowhere. Now this is me, the same stupid person again.

February 17 2015 - "I have this sad feeling of not be able to hear you"

For so long I have been that happy
On things finally are falling to pieces
Embark the twine twigs that rattling
And something that lost I have find

Soaring up high in joyfulness
You reach my heart filled with warmth
In your eyes, voice and smile
I never felt so easy and safe abide

But yesterday the bird sings one grace
Have come and bid a near calling
His heart is pierce and torn to pieces
There he will grieve and rest cannot find

My heart embark a fiery sprite
Once have been lifted and carry behind
Lost in dark cannot entwined
With the song in my heart you have rhymed

My heart is like yours torn to pieces
In my eyes there's grieving cold cries
You and I would might not be with each other
And I will never be the same person again

We've met on strangers road
No one told on what to hold
So many faces, eyes I stalled
All in my mind is your smile have recalled

In dark night unnamed stars collide
Such unique they all mesmerize
Sparks and flame all not the same
Harmony bright light they all share

All share in strangers path
All are bond to some of what
Some of what I used to believe
Believing things are all ways have meant to be

We have our own journey
When we've met on strangers road
When our eyes have swiftly collide
In my memories I will keep all your smiles

I never let anyone bard to know
The truth in me inside endow
For I deprive the world to share
Secrets in my life I bare

One by one I chained this soul
Chained sewed one by whole
Where I was drowned by heavy tears
To rust in hate, pain and fear

Guilty accused from what have told
Called they knew the truth I hold
All this time they think I'm dold
But there's nothing than emptiness I fold

Mind is anxious of what they have know
If I die in morose then throw to fall
A cold hearted person what have I shown
Everyone have see I build tall wall

I have sheltered my heart away from world
For not to hurt again by sharp words
Words doesn't rhyme and seem misfits
Made me not to stay, leave and no one to keep